Stage Fright

Even before I'm upon stage,

My stage fright starts to get to me.

Butterflies in my stomach, fluttering around.

I feel like I haven't eaten in days.

My knees dissolve into jelly

Wiggling and jerking with a mind of their own.

And as I feverishly mutter my lines to myself,

I hear my cue, or the compere announces my name.

I gulp in air, but the oxygen doesn't seem to reach my brain.

I walk onstage

Into the blindingly bright light

For a minute, I am dazzled.

I can't see anything!

But as soon as my eyes adjust...

I panic.

"Oh My God!" runs through my head.

A sea of faces

All gazing my way,

Expectantly

Like I'm someone important.

My heartbeat accelerates.

I break out in a cold sweat,

My jelly-legs knocking together so hard, I'm surprised they don't notice.

And as the stage fright grips me,

Right in front of that huge audience,

I see a face in the midst of the crowd.

That face!

The boy who tormented me when I was a new girl, back in fourth grade.

The boy who still makes me so angry, I could beat him into a pulp and feel satisfied.

The thought of revenge on him has kept me awake at night.

I hate him, his guts, that stupid smug grin spreading across his face.

"I'll show him!" I think

And with a defiant toss of my head, I begin to speak.

....

Later, after everyone congratulates me on my performance,

I'll think about the motivation that made me speak.

The thing that blew away my stage fright.

Boys are pretty useless,

But after an incident like this,

I have to admit,

They do have their uses....

*wink wink*

Cell Phones- The BANE of my existence (Yes, I'm insane. Read on)

A boy and a girl are sitting in a restaurant. The atmosphere is quite cosy, and the guy is pretty confident. He's just about to make his move when....

'TRRING!'

The sound of the girl's cell phone shatters the air. In this situation, I'm quite sure that I would have cut the phone. But (horrors!) the girl actually pulls it out of her pocket!

This is the cell phone. Actually, at the time of its invention, it was supposed to be a handy device that can help you if you get stuck in an undesirable situation. Soon, it evolved into an outlet for your feelings and a haven for Twitter-maniacs. But now, I see that it's increasingly becoming a source of trouble and, more often, ridicule.

For example, an 11-year old girl got stuck with her friend in a storm drain. Luckily, they happened to have a cell phone with them. Now any sane person, at least I think, would use their cell phone to call 911. Instead, the girl updates her Facebook status, saying,"OMG!! me n frend stuck in storm drain, someone plz send help!!" Not surprisingly, they didn't get help for another 7 hours.

One of the other incidents that will prejudice me forever against cell phone users is that of my 14th birthday party. All of my friends, every last one of them has a cell phone, with either a 3 megapixel camera or super-loud speakers. Now I admit my party was a bit lame, but I most certainly expect my friends to be fun and try to enjoy in whatever was available. Instead, they all whip out their cell phones and start showing each other pics of cute dogs or secret messages from guys. This made me feel a bit left-out, not to mention jealous. It's just one of those incidents that you never forget.

My parents were going to buy me a cell phone for my birthday. Looking at my friends' behavior, they decided not to. It did sting a bit at first, but I must admit that I agree now. Cell phones have changed from a boon to a menace. And I have no intention of transforming myself into one of those girls that I see around me everyday, glued to their phones like they accidently spilled superglue on their hands. One of my friends studied for her exam just cos her phone was confiscated and she wouldn't get it back unless she got good marks. As it is, I have a very bad tendency of getting addicted to various substances, and I don't want to add cell phones to that very long list. So which side are you on?

P.S: I'm sorry about the huge break in my posts, but I've been reeaally busy and I just couldn't think of stuff to blog about. Sorry!

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